Ohxohxsnap's Journals

Somehow, everything is going to fall...

... right into place...

So just now

as in <5 minutes ago

I was asked to homecoming

by a person who is very special to me

and though we live about 2 hours away from each other, I trust this person more than almost everyone else I know combined

This person is amazing and is always there for me

and I'm kinda freaking out, in a good way of course :)

and so yeah...

Pull-Ups and Thongs.

We all have dark secrets

Those skeletons in the closet.

That monster under the bed.

Thought he left you,

Didnâ�™t you,

When you stopped sleeping with a nightlight

And started wearing

â�˜Big kid undiesâ�™.

Well heâ�™s still there.

And more dangerous than ever.

The ones who hurt you the most

Are the ones who love you

And the ones who you donâ�™t know.

Either they think they canâ�™t hurt you

Anymore

Or they

Just

Donâ�™t

Care.

But in a way

Isnâ�™t it the same thing?

Love or loss,

Monsters or skeletons.

Pull-ups or thongs,

Itâ�™s all the same in the end.

But that doesnâ�™t really matter now,

Does it?

People just go on living their everyday lives

Pretending

Nothing

Wrong

Or just having it prescribed away by doctors

With pens and Prozac.

White coats and white lies

Pull-ups and thongs.

Nightlights or cave black

Whatever helps us sleep and night.

But theyâ�™re still there

The monsters and the skeletons.

Instead of sharp teeth and broken bones

They have sharp lies and broken thoughts.

We might never do anything to them

Except be there

Invading â�˜their roomâ�™

With â�˜their closetâ�™

Take it back

Take back whatâ�™s yours

Donâ�™t let them destroy you

Rise above the monsters that lie in wait

Under the bed

Waiting to grip your ankles when you

Get up

In the middle of the night

To use the bathroom

Cause you donâ�™t use pull-ups anymore.

Stop on their hands

Crush their bones

Walk to the bathroom

Nothing is wrong

But everything is better.

They are gone when you go back.

Throw out the Prozac.

Turn off your nightlight.

Buy some new underwear.

Everything is normal now.

Until you open your closet.

BF/GF application :P just wanted to see...

what you guys and gals would say :) Name: Birthdate: Age: Birthplace: Eye Color: Hair Color: Hair Length: Height: Weight: Any tattoos: Any piercings: Do you.. Have a job: If so, where: Smoke: If yes, how often: Drink: If yes, how often and how much: Do drugs: If yes, what kind and how often: Play sports: Believe in God: Support Gay Marriage: Support Abortion: Favorites.. Artist: Band: Song: Show: Movie: Food: Drink: Sports:

wooo!

yay!!
I just reserved a copy of Breaking Dawn for in-store pick up ^.^
getting to tomorrow :D
*does happy dance*

hmmm...

think i might post a video of me singing here not sure though do you guys want me to? and if so, what should I sing? I'm thinking "We Are Broken" by Paramore or "I Met My Best Friend In Prague" by Powerspace any other suggestions?

insert clever song lyrics here

yay new pictures :D comment, pweese? I'll give you a cookie! XD

I is a spy XD

1. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you? friends 2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? yesh 3. What happened at 10:00 am today? I ate a sandwich XD 4. When did you last cry? Friday night 5. What is your favorite thing to eat? ahh too many to name :D 6. What do you want in your life right now? people to respect me 7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood? neither :D 8. What are you wearing right now? pj bottoms, Paramore shirt :D 9. What do you smell like? shampoo? 10. What did you last put in your mouth? pasta/fork 11. What's your favorite thing you have on your bed? my pillow? 12. What's the nicest text in your inbox say? uhh... 13. Do you tend to make relationships complicated? not usually 14. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? not right now 15. What was the last movie you went to see? haha I forgot XD 16. Whose birthday is coming up? I dunno 17. Strangest place you've ever slept? haha in Fang's aunt's dining room XD 18. Can you sleep in jeans? if i'm reaaaally tired 19. Are you a cuddler? haha YES! :P 20. Something you just don't understand? how people can be so stupid 21. Where were you on July 4th, 2007? at my house in England 22. What does the last text message you received say? ahhhhhh! 23. What did you reply? Noooooo!! 24. Who was the last person you were in a car with that is under 20? uhhhh prob one of my friends :P 25. What is the last thing someone bought you? food XD 26. When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends? 27. Is there something you regret doing in the past month? not really... 28. Do you trust people easily? yes. 29. Who is someone you can trust? fang, sash, my other friends. haha i put more than one XD 30. What did you eat today? muffin sandwich pasta 31. Who was last to cook for you? the cook at the resturant XD 32. When was the last time you received flowers? uhhhhh 33. Name the last drink you bought. sprite 34. Do you care what others think about you? sometimes 35. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years? no 36. Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again? yes 37. What do you look forward to in the next 3 months? PARAMORE!!! :D 38. If you're in school, what's your favorite class? uhhhh music tech :P 39. Who did you last comment on MySpace? ... 40. Who's the most annoying person in your neighborhood? our neighbors 41. Do you plan on moving in the next year? NO! 42. When was the last time you were out of state? uhhh friday 43. What is the closest picture near you? me in a leopard print hat XD 44. Do you smoke? nope 45. Name a quote from a song. your lovesick melody won't get the best of me tonight

sighs

god today was the worst day of my life. First I got in a huge fight with the other Sasha, who is pretty much my best friend here. Then I found out I can't go see Panic cause it's on a school night. My parents said they would have been okay with it except for that fact. Then I overheard them saying they hope the whole thing with my music and clothing is just a phase. That cut real deep. I feel like I have no one to talk to right now. Basically, life sucks at my house right now.

brawr

from dearlyloved What would you do if? 1. I was right next to you: 2. I kissed you: 3. I lived next door to you: 4. I started smoking: 5. I was hospitalized: 6. I was drunk: 7. I hugged you: 8. I asked you to leave: 9. I asked you out: What do you think about my? 10. personality: 11. eyes: 12. hair: 13. body: Would you? 14. be my friend? 15. keep a secret if i told you one? 16. kiss me? 17. go on a date with me? 18. keep in touch? 19. date me? Have you ever? 20. lied to make me feel better? 21. wanted to kiss me? 22. wanted to bite me? 23. kept something important from me? 24. wanted to cuddle with me? And more. 25. who are you? 26. are we friends? 27. when and how did we meet? 28. describe me in one word: 29. what was your first impression? 30. what reminds you of me? 31. if you could give me anything what would it be? 32. how well do you know me? 33. when's the last time you saw me? 34. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 35. are you gonna post this so you can see what I say about you?

one year six months ago...

One year six months ago at this time, I was in England One year six months ago, I thought nothing in my life would ever change One year six months ago, I thought people living their dreams was just a dream One year six months ago, I had never kissed a boy One year six months ago, I didn't know the power and strength of music One year six months ago, I didn't know the feeling of loving someone so much, you would die for them One year six months ago, I had never felt loss One year six months ago, I was a different person
A more blind, closed minded Sasha One year six monthes ago, I was incomplete But that was one year six months ago Now I know where I stand, who I am, what I want to be How I can make a difference

One year six months later Now I know what it's like to be alive.